“Here I am Lord, use me.”
I absolutely love that! As senior year and graduation is fastly approaching, thoughts of my future are frequently on my mind. To be honest, the thought of having to pick a college and decide what I’m going to major in, is a bit overwhelming and truly does scare me. Not to mention that my whole life depends on that one decision!
The other day as those questions were rolling around in my mind, I felt emotionally drained. As I continued to think about it, I began to realize that I really had no idea why I’m pondering and making myself stress out. In that moment this verse came to mind:
When I am afraid, I put my trust in You. In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust, I shall not be afraid. What can flesh do to me? -Psalm 56:3-4
In the quietness, I realized that I was not putting my trust in Him. I was taking control of my life, “trying” to come up with my own plans. How wrong and selfish I was being. I was not giving that area of my life over to God, and saying: Not my will, but Yours be done.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. -Proverbs 3:5-6
Those who trust in themselves are fools, but those who walk in wisdom are kept safe. -Proverbs 28:26
I was trusting in myself to make the right decisions, I was being a fool. In that moment I prayed that the Lord would use my life and use it all for His glory. Here I am Lord, use me. I’m an empty vessel. I need you, fill me. I want to do Your will, not mine.
Lord, You are the Potter and I am the clay.
Mold me and make me, have Thine own way
Lord, I give my life, I give my all to You,
To be a willing vessel, to use me through and through.
That was when I came to the realization that I don’t need to worry anymore. I can have peace that it is all taken care of, He holds it all in His hands. Oh, what a good, good, Father!
I’m not saying that I won’t ever worry about any of these things again. Sadly, because we are all sinners in a constant battle between right and wrong, we do and will have the tendency to let sin come into our lives. Because of God’s grace, He sent His son to die for us so we can have power over sin, and will be able to spend eternity with Him in Heaven someday. What an awesome God that loves us even when we don’t deserve it. He sent His own Son to die for you and me! As sinners we are as filthy rags dead in our sin, but He still loves us unconditionally, no matter what.
I shake my head and smile in awe of God’s grace and forgiveness. Jesus is my all and all, and because of that, I praise Him.
I challenge you, give your life completely over to Him. Let Him be Lord over your life. Trust Him as your Rock and your Salvation.
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